day 38. ‘the second ‘trip’

Well. When do you ‘need’ something? 

I found myself in Monterey this weekend and we had plans, changed them and then KIND OF changed them back. Needless to say, I didn’t pack appropriately for an outing. 

It was more of a comfort level and not like I was inappropriately dressed so, obviously this year was about not shopping for wants. When is something a need and not a want? When do you NEED something in order to feel comfortable? 

I’m not going to not wear a bra if I need one and don’t have one. I MEAN, DUH. So there are limits. 

But this was about a golf tournament - I forgot workout pants and my nikes for walking the 4.7 miles we walked. I had jeans (which are slightly too big now because of some weight I have lost) and high top sneakers that I actually didn’t even remember packing so thank heavens for those. Did I look out of place? Not necessarily - did I look myself at a golf tournament? No. Did I feel comfortable in the setting or about myself or in my attire? Absolutely not. 

I basically took zero pictures of myself - promise I was there! - because I felt so terrible about myself all weekend. Apparently clothes do make this (wo)man. Still learning all that ‘ticks’ during this no shopping process and obviously I have a lot left to still uncover. 

One of the three pictures of myself, was with wine, natch.