day 31. the first 'trip'

I have hit my first challenge - a weekend trip with friends to Palm Springs.

Although I have had a healthy month, I haven’t lost much in the poundage department and I am not totally happy with my body. SO, with a trip looming, I usually start planning my looks - whether its two weeks in Europe, a quick weekend trip to Phoenix to visit family or 45 hours in Indio for a couples getaway, I live for a ‘look’. When presented with my closet options the things I wanted to wear for the warm - weather - in - January weekend were not exactly things I felt comfortable in.

Sure, these are some of my closest friends. But I am who I am. And I like to feel my best, look stylish, feel comfortable and confident and that comes with cute clothes. WE ARE WHO WE ARE, OK?

Enter: Shopping.

Normally I would head to Zara, Target, Anthro, Madewell etc etc etc. BUT I AM NOT SHOPPING FOR THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS, and I have made it almost a month, so NO TURNING BACK - #amiright?!

So I dug deep and also lowered my expectations a little bit. We literally aren’t planning on leaving the house we rented, and we are planning on lounging by the pool, talking girl talk and sipping on cocktails. Not exactly the Met Gala, ok Brooke?

But this was a challenge. I went to target for a couple of last minute things and right SMACK DAB in front of me when I walked in was a VERY on brand dress (that’s a thing, ok?) and I had a fleeting ‘no one would even know’ but I WOULD KNOW. And I am probably the hardest person on myself.

***side note: I did feel the dress and it was slightly icky, so crisis averted anyways***

What I learned is this is going to be challenging. I am going to have weak moments and I am going to question my decision. But I have already learned so much about my competitive spirit and some reasons why I may run to purchasing something, anything when I feel a certain way. That was the goal, right?

SO! One month down, eleven to do. Gulp.