the time is now.

ATTENTION:  This is super embarrassing to share, BUT I feel as if I SHARE, then each of you can hold me accountable for my life.  

I have gained 14 lbs this year.  IN TEN MONTHS.

Now, before you get all like 'you can't tell' or 'no you haven't!'... I have.  The scale / doctors / my overly tight clothing do not lie.  I have never been one to have to watch what I eat - although I eat fairly healthy overall - and I am not keen to working out but as a wise (I really thought he was joking me) doctor once said, once you turn 30, your body just, changes.  Whew, he was right!  

Along with that, earlier this year I was pregnant which accounted for 9 of those lbs.  When I lost the baby, instead of losing that and then some, I ate.  And I drank, to either numb the pain or hide it or just take my mind off my sadness.  

I know that miscarriage is SO very common, and I know women are starting to speak about it and I appreciate it so much... but I took it hard.  I don't need to ask for forgiveness for being sad and emotional but I am finally understanding that.  It's been a really tough year, this whole experience is taxing, expensive and physically draining - but I am ready to turn it around!  B O O M Baby.  

So, as I embark on this new journey - during the holidays, natch, I will share (hopefully) progress...and also?  I am going to work on other aspects that have consumed me this year.  Because who wants to start 2018 on the wrong foot?  

Join me, Friends!